My Way Out

There’s this song that has expressed my relationship with skating since I first put skates on my feet over 10 years ago.

My Way Out – David Usher

Roller derby was by far not the first obsession I had with skates.

First it was short-track, and this man:

I could block this, or be blocked by this all day long.

I could block this, or be blocked by this all day long.


I’ve written endlessly on how much Apolo Ohno has influenced my life and my training as a skater even to this day, and I can only hope to build even just a small percent of myself as focused and disciplined as he is as an athlete.

Knowing the reality of my life and understanding that skating short-track would never come to fruition, I strapped on a pair of rollerblades and skated anywhere and everywhere. I skated all over Calgary, used skates to commute to work, to the gym.. Skating was all the things to me. I even accumulated a small collection of road rash scars from my escapades on rollerblades..

… life sucks? skate.

… need to think? skate.

….. everything is AWESOME? skate.

I’ve lived my life on skates for as long as I can remember, and unfortunately every time I did put on a pair of skates.. it was always too late to make a competitive difference in my life. I never got to be that short-track skater, I never got to skate inline speed skating races or aggressive inline..

… and that’s where roller derby was the difference.

Roller derby afforded me the opportunity to finally bring out the athlete hiding in me, the person that I’ve wanted to become since I laid eyes on that one short track race in 2002. It got me to places that I had never heard of, met amazing and fantastic people and helped me cross off a big thing on my bucket list which was to try out for a national team.

I didn’t make the team, but hey… I now have another goal which I work towards every day.

Skating was no longer just the escape, it has become my life. A life that I need no escapes from, where I can skate as fast and as hard as I can with a shit-eating grin on my face, knowing that yes… I am free.

This is my way out, and it’s fantastic.


Back at it again

Yep, it’s definitely been a while since I’ve blogged.

You know those New Years resolutions that people tend to forget about weeks later, yeah.. that was one of them.

Life just took over, scheduling all the roller derby, training for a triathlon, work, personal life… it’s been quite the busy year!

I’ve been doing lots with roller derby, project life, training and cards and I hope that I can keep up with this blog better than I have before.


Ear Candy: See You Again – Wiz Khalifa Feat. Charlie Puth

Last Friday was the opening night of the long awaited latest chapter of the Fast & The Furious franchise. I, like many others, was curious to see how they would handle the passing of Paul Walker, aka Brian O’Conner. I wrote about Mr. Walker after his passing in 2013 ( It was the very first time that a celebrity’s passing had an impact on my life, Paul was truly a car enthusiast like any one of us.

This song is part of Furious 7’s soundtrack, and the video is a wonderful tribute to Paul and his character Brian. It continues the feels that can be felt during the last moments of the movie and you can see that the emotions are very real for the cast.





Ear Candy: Bad Moon Rising – Mourning Ritual

I’ve been singing my praises over Google Play Music for nearly a year now. Without it, I wouldn’t be able to find so much amazing music as I’ve found over the year. The other day, while studying for an exam (and doing some creative writing at the same time), I decided to use Google Play Music’s radio feature on “All Along the Watchtower” – Alex Da kid Remix (yes, I know I know.. a remake)

I really like the remake, and would listen to it over and over until I’m entirely sick of the song.. but I digress.

“Bad Moon Rising” (which is yet another remake), came on the playlist and I was sucked into the low and deep vocals along with the dub step-esque backing track (and I do love me some dub step-esque music). It’s soulful, steamy and a really good listen. Bonus points because it was actually a song used for one of the Walking Dead previews!


Follow your bloody mother effin’ heart.

A long long time ago, I fell into this circle of friends… not quite entirely sure how I got there, but… there I was. Y’know those puzzle pieces that just, don’t quite fit… but you try to make it fit?

Yeah, that was me.

As my life fell apart… like it seemed to have done on a yearly basis between the ages of 18-21, I vividly remembered something that one of those so-called friends told me.

“There is more to life than cars.”

While I can agree with that, I will have to mention this…. without cars, my life wouldn’t be what it is now.

I have a bit of an obsessive quality in my personality, I get super-passionate about something and it becomes the only thing I can think about.. skating, wrestling, cars.. if I was interested in it, at one point.. it was the only thing I could think about. At that point in my life, my life was cars… I had just gotten my drivers license, I was attempting to save up for my first car. In my head, having a car meant freedom, it meant that the only rules I needed to abide by was the rules of the road (and we all know those rules are merely a guideline 😉 ).

Needless to say, those ‘friends’ I had didn’t stay my friends for much longer, and me… I said fuck it, and followed my heart. I wanted to work in Automotive Marketing, I wanted to be part of that industry… I worked my ass off, and everyone knows.. the harder you work, the luckier you get.

I got to be part of the automotive community in Calgary, a big part of the Mitsubishi scene in the 403, worked with dealers, clubs… I got to meet Dave, who I then moved out with and got to move on to much bigger and better things.

… all because I followed my bloody mother effing heart.

I look at the pieces of my life right now, things that people said I’d grow out of, things that people said were a phase… and I’ll be honest, I don’t see any of those, i see all the epic things that I’ve been able to do, amazing people and journeys that I’ve been able to go on…

… and all because what?


Nobody sees the world through your eyes, nobody knows how you process or what your motivations are. Find your feet, follow your path, because people WILL doubt you, people will think you’re crazy and obsessed, but y’know what.. that’s their energy they’re wasting.

You do you, and don’t worry about what anyone else says.




Yesterday it snowed in Kelowna, and it snowed so much that it broke a decades old record!


I love this type of weather when I don’t have anywhere to be, it was fun to watch the snow keep coming down and down, but not so fun shoveling the mass amounts of snow or poking the snow off of the Pinto tent. School was cancelled, highways were a mess, but everyone hunkered down and it doesn’t appear that there were any terrible accidents yesterday.

And now we wait for it to melt!

– Until then…


Make a wish! – First card post of 2015

Make a wish!

So it’s been a while since I’ve posted a card on the blog, and one of my resolutions this year was to blog at least once a month… so here’s a blog! haha

I bring to you a 4 in x 4 in card, the base is Bazil basics stock (as well as the purple and the yellow paper), the polka dots are from the Doodlebug design fruit stand 6 x 6 paper stack (it’s an amazing stack, you should totally get it!), the greeting is from Stampin’ Up’s Perfect Pennants. I added some little clips from the dollar store to add some interest.

The 4×4 size of card is a neat size, I’m enjoying the format and will likely make a few more 4×4 cards.


Awesome things in 2014

2014 is nearing the end, and to reflect on the year that was… I figure I would write about a few awesome things that took place in 2014 …

1) I did a mud run and then played roller derby in the same day (capping off a 5 week streak of derby games – starting with a tournament!)

Photo by Kelly Dutchak

Photo by Kelly Dutchak

I have played more roller derby this year alone, than the previous 4 combined. Most of which took place between April and May. I also issued a challenge to myself at the beginning of the year to finish a mud run, so I trained accordingly for the demands of what my body needed for many derby games and a mud run… but what I didn’t factor in, was playing a game AFTER a mud run.

I was asked to play with the Revelstoke Derailers after the Kelowna MST run, and being the fool I was, I said yes! My first mud run was quite the experience and I’d defintely do it again! The challenge was to get home, shower off and get all the mud off of myself and then sit in a car for 2 hours and then get un-stiff to play the derbz. Well, I did! And came along with the Derailers as they claimed victory against the Kamloops Wreckers.

This year has been a great year in roller derby, I have had such fun skating with the Sun City Sirens and the Thompson Okanagan All Star Team (annd anyone who wants to pick me up! 😉 ). Between home games, tournaments and scrimmages, I’ve been fortunate enough to be part of this amazing Okanagan roller derby community.

I’ve learned that I LOVE tournaments, and I love the physical challenge of training my body to see how far I can run, how fast I can go, how much I can lift. I can’t wait to see how much I can push myself in 2015!

2) I finished school!!


I’m done, done, done done! No more working all day in code, and then going home and coding (unless I’m working OT, which seems to be happening a lot this week). My last semester was definitely the hardest and most trying just dealing with program requirements and taking 2 courses at the same time, but I feel so great and so much lighter and happy to say I finished school!

3) Lego

Bike Shop and Cafe

EVERYTHING IS AWESOME! Seriously, it is! I got back into Lego in 2013 and 2014 I started to collect more buildings, I even annexed the train table to give my Lego a home and now I have my little city (as yet un-named) to build and it’s been a great hobby that I’ve taken on. I love building the sets I get, it’s a great way for me to get working with my hands and more about spatial awareness. Also, I *think* I’m getting Dave into Lego, so I’m hoping it’ll be a fun hobby the both of us can do 🙂

Santa was awesome to me this Birthday-mas and I finally have a few modular buildings to add to my modest collection, I look forward to posting a small tour of my lego town for you guys!

4) Rose City Wheels of Justice

THIS TEAM. omg. Watching their rise to the WFTDA finals was amazing, and with the late season acquisitions of Serelson and Rivas, it just made an already strong team.. SUPER strong. I love watching Scald Eagle jam because she just exudes power, something that I’m trying to work towards is to be powerful.

They took such a fight to Gotham that nobody has ever done before, and it was amazing to watch this team come together and be strong and be there for each other in this amazing moment. My heart broke for them in that last jam, but I know they’ll take what they’ve learned and become even stronger, and from them, I draw inspiration to become a better team player, and become a skater.

5) Skating Park

I like skating, skating is the best

To me, this is easily one of the highlights of the year… getting the balls to go to the skate park and mess around in the ramps and jump all over things. Skating park has opened up a whole new avenue of things to do on skates (and I LOVE skating, skating is the best). I love getting up early, having the park to myself with tunes in my ear and just jamming around on anything and everything I can think of. I am by no means a pro skater, but I love park skating and can’t wait for the snow to melt so I can skate MOAR!

6) Going home for the holidays


For the first time since I moved, I was able to go home and celebrate the Christmas season with my family, and boy was it a whirlwind of a trip. Did some last minute shopping, helped with cooking and wrapping gifts and I still was able to do some work-work while I was there. It was nice to be able to celebrate my nephew’s birthday with him and to be able to participate in the Christmas Bingo as well as being the Santa for this year. It definitely was awesome to be able to spend time with my family and see their faces when they opened gifts, and awesome to see the amusement on my nephew’s face when he was opening gifts. It was definitely worth the wait, and hopefully I’ll be able to afford to be out there more for the holidays.


2014 was a great year filled with amazing accomplishments, some difficult times (being injured sucks), trying times and of course happy times. I couldn’t fit everything that I would love to write about in one blog post, but I look back at the year and I smile at the good memories that were made and look forward to making even more.

Thanks for the memories everyone! Let’s make this year even better!

– Until then…


Reddit Gifts – An experiment

Update 3: Card giftee really enjoyed their card and the TARDIS:

And Secret Santa giftee enjoyed their gift (no pictures though):

annd I got my gift just in time for Christmas:

The experiment was successful and taught me that I should be patient haha, I love the tea I recieved and can’t wait to enjoy it, and I love that I was able to cheer someone up on a stressful day.

Result: Success! Would do again!

update 2! Giftee has responded! Can’t wait to see how they enjoy the gift 🙂

Update: gift santa has pulled my information! Excitement building 🙂  hopefully this experiment will prove more fun 🙂

A few months ago, while surfing the interweb, I stumbled upon the reddit gift exchange. After many hours of research and looking at various gifts that people have sent over the years (including Bill Gates), I decided to sign up. I love giving gifts and if I got a gift out of it, it would be a bonus. As the days got closer to the exchange, I got more and more excited as to who I would get matched with… would it be someone who liked roller derby like me? would it be a girl or a boy, and would they like the random things that I would purchase and send to them.


I chose not to get matched internationally, just based on the exorbitant shipping costs here in Canada, so I knew for sure that my giftee would be from Canada.

Matching day came around and I was matched with a girl who liked Harry Potter among other interests like travelling and the colour green. I messaged my giftee and put a whimsical spin on things, but got very little in a response back from her… so I pressed on, and went to the mall the following night to purchase gifts for what is, a complete stranger. I found lovely things based on her interests, even added in a little treat for her furry friend that she had listed on her interests and happily went home to package up what I thought would be a wonderful gift for anyone to receive.

Meanwhile, on the other side of things, I was anxiously awaiting the moment where my own santa would pull my information and ask me questions about my interests. I had long since shipped my gift away, but my own santa had not even pulled my information. As the days wore on, and more and more gifts were posted on the gallery, I felt like a little kid that was on the outside looking in.

I knew that there was a chance that I would get someone who wasn’t like me, who was in for just receiving a gift and not giving one, but as the number of matches received kept going up, the feeling of being left out kept growing.

I then signed up for the Holiday Card Exchange, because hey! I make cards and I would love for them to bring joy in someone’s day. I signed up to be an international match for someone, and got someone in Seattle (not as exotic of a location as I had hoped), but I made and sent them a card just the same. This time, my own holiday card santa pulled my information, but only once, and has since not marked the card as shipped (the deadline was yesterday).

My own gift to my giftee was delivered this week, a few days earlier than I had anticipated… and now I’m anxiously awaiting their post to see if they enjoyed their overstuffed gift full of chocolate and good intentions. I even dropped a message to them, wishing them a happy holiday in the hopes that they would respond and say that they enjoyed the gift, but days have gone by and I still have not received any messages back.

I’m not going to lie, as fun as it was to give gifts and make cards which did bring me some holiday joy, I can’t help but feel a shred of sourness between my giftee who didn’t seem grateful at all to my first santa not even bothering to pull my information, to another one who hasn’t even mailed a card yet (to my knowledge). I know that this wasn’t the aim of the Reddit gift exchange, and I am still willing to try it again next year… the first round of this experiment is not yielding any fully happy results.

That said, the exchange is still in full swing, and there is still lots of time, so like a little kid, I’ll wait by the window for my santa (and update the post accordingly!)

– until then…


PS. I think I got sucked into the world of reddit, and love reading /r/lego among other good things to read…

Ear Candy: Kids – Sleigh Ride

Here’s a thing you likely never knew about  me, I wanted to get into agressive inline skating a long long time ago when I was an avid inline skater. This video is sick, but it’s the song that definitely makes the video for me, I first heard this track on the trailer for “Pain & Gain”

This is a killer workout track and a really good song to skate to at the park.


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